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So you better be good for goodness sake-or at least try

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So, will beautifying the outside make a difference with a wonky inside?

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I am the weird, strange and odd kind of person that thinks deeply in situations that there is no obvious depth. A local grocery store that is one of the top in the nation decided to throw out all of their old front racks (for magazines, dvds and other wares) and use a deep and dark-colored wood to give the store an even more sophisticated look. And I suddenly thought, okay-the store looks better, but does this really improve the store? The store has more swanky touches, but how nice is the management? Does the company treat the employees the way that it once did when the owner of the store was alive?

See, a super mundane thing like shelf replacement makes me think about beauty on the inside versus the outside. I told you I’m weird. But really, are the ultra difficult workouts I am doing twice a day making me a better person? Stronger, maybe. More fit, I hope. A better shape to my body-here’s hoping.:) But if I did not work on myself spiritually, does any of that other stuff matter?

Well, in the world we live in today, it seems so. I don’t want to be one of those writing about the famous K family. But, if they didn’t have banging bodies and pretty faces, would people hate/love them in the way that they do? Though the question is purely rhetorical, I think you know the answer. NO! They look so awesome on the outside, but what goes on internally with some of them is really screwed up.

I can’t lie, I would love to have Kendall’s model figure and look great in everything. I would also like to not watch every bite that goes into my mouth and workout all of the time. But, genetics have a funny way of giving us the good, bad and the ugly stuff. I am attractive, but will never be modelesque. I am petite in height, and wear myself out measuring food and working out and drinking water to see minimal pounds lost.

The point is, I work so hard on the outside, but if I was a complete a-hole to people then I would not have people want to be around me. People wouldn’t want to celebrate my bday with me, or go see my daughter perform, or invite me to things. I am glad that I am good on the inside and that I do not act as though the world revolves around me. I pray and I am humble and I try to treat every one with kindness, until they piss me off.:)

So, as I sculpt my body with my 21 Day Fix deal and lift my weights and measure my portions, I will continue to ensure that what lies within rivals the beauty on the outside. For if the inside is ugly and tainted, then the outside, no matter how fit or gorgeous will just not be as beautiful.

I wish that more people could have this revelation or be convicted of this because looks do fade. It is a sad, sad circumstance for those that have lived their life letting their looks lead their way because once youth fades,the no one cares anymore. Then they are forced to have relationships based on their heart and mind.

Well, at least I have my heart and mind right. Just waiting for my body to be as fabulous! I will keep on trying one workout at a time. One pound at a time and one measurement at a time! Wish me luck!!

Simply~

Dee

Hmmm…I want to trust people but don’t know where to start so I will blog…

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I have a short fuse and people get on my nerves, but I am KIND more than I should be sometimes and go out of my way for people a lot. I don’t get used and abused or anything because I got rid of my doormat days years ago. But, I want to be liked and accepted and for someone who always touts that ‘I don’t care what people think’ or that ‘I don’t need any new friends’, it is just me protecting myself. I don’t have ride or die friends as “they” say. I have a whole lot of people who I could call right now if I really needed something, but I don’t have a super deep connection but with a handful of people. I guess that is okay and perhaps even normal-whatever that means-but when I see other people’s situations I question myself. A LOT!

I guess it is the whole Facebook/Instagram phenomenon of group selfies started by celebs and overused by average Joes/Janes. A “friend” of mine posted celebration pictures of an event that she threw for herself the other day and there were quite a few people and I honestly don’t know how this known flake has that many friends. It is not that I am jealous, but I am SO the opposite of flaky. This person will have plans with you and ignore your texts/calls leading up to the event and call the next day swearing she slept through it all. But, the next time she will be all good and actually do what she said she was going to do.

Is friendship and trust the tricky dance that dating and romance are? If you give too much, or are too available, people will take you for granted? I think that if I could sum up my relationships (work, family, friends) in a nutshell, taken for granted would be more of what happens to me than being used. People just think that I will always be there no matter what. I want to change that in a BIG way. My daughter was up for a part near NYC this weekend and after 2nd submission, they decided to go with someone else. I want her to “make it” for many reasons. A. Because she wants to. B. Because it is money for her education and C. So I can get the heck out of D.C. so that people will realize we won’t always be there.

Ridiculous? Maybe so, but I don’t know how to be kind and sweet me without being super giving. But when I feel unappreciated, I go from sweet to b—- in 30 seconds. It’s like I am either one extreme or another and that is not really a good thing. One of my exes, who is the only ex that I keep in contact with, told me once that I am an extremist. He said you either; love or hate, are happy or angry, sweet or mean, excited or somber. I kind of got mad when he said it, but it is partly true. I am rarely an in-the-middle kind of gal. I know what I like, I know who I like and I know what makes me happy.

If, people or places or things do not make me feel good or satisfied or fulfilled, then I move on. I love my D.C., but sometimes I feel like giving another place a chance. This is my 2nd major city that I have called home. But there is such a large world out there. Will “running away” change who I am or my circumstances? Or will I be equally frustrated whether I am in Naples, Italy, or Los Angeles, California. I want to be kind and loving and good to people, but I would like reciprocity a bit more:) Just a thought…

Simply~

Dee