So…I have a date with this seemingly cool guy. He did mention his rides a few times too many on the phone and I did roll my eyes a bit, but we’ll see. I tend to be so critical of people because it is easier to not form an attachment. Make sense?

I talked with him for about 10 minutes and the conversation was okay. I just am not good at this. It is so much easier to talk with my morning IG guy in Alabama or my afternoon friend who lives in the Midwest, because I know I won’t meet up with them. Like ever. The chances are slim to none because of distance and I don’t like them like that. At all.

It is easier for me to be myself when I am not face to face with someone too. I think being on the phone with this guy made me nervous because I know that I will be face to face with him soon. He’s a big D.C. attorney,so hopefully he is not too pompous! I don’t want to waste an evening away from my kid for nothing.

Okay, I am doing it again! I am already trying to talk myself out of something before it begins! I am letting fear wreck my chances of something real! Because let’s face it.The  texting with Alabama is not real. And, most def the chatting with married guy friend is not real. They are just place fillers and opinion givers and flatterers and friends. So, I will have to step out on faith. I don’t have a choice, if I want to ever find love again.

It’s just for a quick bite and a drink, so no harm no foul right? I am going to obsess over every outfit I have for the next 5 days. I just know it. Also, I will be scrutinizing every calorie and exercise move that I do to make sure I look my best. I was so much more confident in my 20’s. This is harder than I thought it would be!

I will keep you guys posted. Hope that whatever situation that you are in that is leading you to something that you desire is not this nerve wracking.:)

simply~

Dee