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So, yesterday I took my 6-year-old laptop to be fixed because a Dell remote support person messed up my HP while trying to fix her Dell. Long story. Long, annoying and jacked up story. ML told me to take it … Continue reading

So, life is a gift. Why don’t most of us treat it as such?

So there is always tomorrow right? For many people that is not the case. There are no days left. There time to depart from earth has come, but I am sure that if they could communicate with those of us who are lucky enough to be alive, they would tell us to wake the hell up! (Pardon my French)

I am so guilty of saying that I am going to have a successful business doing this and that and I never fully reach the potential that I am so capable of. Call it lack of drive, lack of confidence or lack of ability, that would be fair to say. But in all honesty, like so many people I am a dreamer, planning out this better life for myself but waiting for the right time. Or, waiting until I am ready. Or whatever other excuse.

Though I am a doer when it comes to many things, I tend to not fully achieve my goals. I either eat perfectly clean and half-way workout, or workout 35 times in 4 weeks (I am doing that now), but screw up and eat movie popcorn and a candy bar (did that today). I don’t know if it that I am afraid to win or if I just feel like there is always time for whatever my goals are. Aren’t so many of us guilty of this? If you are an over achiever and all of your plans have come to fruition, stop reading this. No, really. Stop. Now.

I am thankful everyday to God that I have my daughter and my mom, and my cute place to live and I have an income. But I really don’t utilize all of the gifts that I have. I am such a good party planner. I am so good at coming up with business names and ideas and concepts for people. I am a decent writer. I am a great resume writer. I am good at managing projects.

But…I am doing those things to the level that I could. I am not starting that party planning business, but I am helping people with their parties and just spent close to 100 hours planning my daughter’s party that is up coming. I don’t write everyday as I said I would. And though I am an office manager, it is not fulfilling for me because I am helping someone else with their dream and their livelihood and not doing something that I am passionate about.

I don’t know how to turn those things around. I don’t know how to motivate myself because there is so much I want to accomplish. I guess I need to stick to the advice that I give to others and do one thing at a time. That has always been a problem for me. I have trouble focusing on one goal or one dream or one project. Am I the only one?

So, this was supposed to be about how life is a gift and that we do not need to take it for granted. See, the whole inability to focus thing going on again:). But I hope that someone can relate to this post. I also hope that this will inspire me (and others) to work on at least something that can be done immediately. So, I will get back to the clean eating while working my butt off to get fit with my round 2 of 21 Day Fix! I will also write more. No, REALLY. I will.

Thanks for bearing with me as I share my innermost thoughts and feelings. Even if I ramble and don’t write daily, and if what I say sometimes makes no sense, I hope that something that I have to say will resonate with someone. Remember that life is too short to not live every day to the fullest.

I am ever so grateful for my life and so blessed to have made it to tell about another day.Good night!

Simply~

Dee

“Be grateful for the gift of life on earth. Not all who saw yesterday were lucky enough to see today.”
― Edmond Mbiaka

So, have you ever heard the phrase: The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away?

I am a total sucker for the beauty of the Olde English language, but that statement is both powerful and reassuring and scary. When I was standing in front of the ocean yesterday, I started pondering life in a big way, as I often do when I go to the beach. The enormity and vastness of the sea always puts me in a spiritual and pensive mode. I wish I could be an air head just trying to catch some rays, but I always go deep-in thoughts, not the water.:)

Then for some reason I thought: The ocean restoreth and the ocean taketh away. It instantly reminded me of how powerful yet beautiful the ocean is and as much as I love it, I fear it. It is similar to the way I feel about God. I worship and uplift Him, but I fear Him all the same. It’s amazing that something so mesmerizing and calming could also sweep someone away to never be seen again. It made me realize how small I am in the vastness of the world. My little life and even smaller problems are like one grain of sand on one beach and there are thousands of beaches and infinite grains of sand.

I really as of late have thought about what I do have that I value and my life is small in comparison to what I view on other people’s “social media” lives or to their circle of acquaintances. But as much as I love my life and long for a “larger” life, I really like the uniqueness and “weeness” of my life experience. I enjoy the adventures with my daughter and seeing my mom 4 or 5 times a year for a week at a time. I enjoy talking to my mom daily on the phone and not to many other people. Though when it comes down to my birthday or holidays, I see and talk to quite a lot of people, my daily life as with many people has come to communicating pretty much through technology. No wonder so many people are so lonely. They have thousands of friends on social media and maybe 3 people they could actually call on.

Not tooting my own horn, but on my FB and IG, I have around 100 on each and I like it because I feel that the people there are people that care. Or I have a real connection with them and I could probably call on 25 or 30 of them in a time of need because they are more than just a number. Many are family and church members and childhood friends. Some are local people that I have known for a decade or a half a decade and I get together with them a few times a year.

My whole point in all of this is to say that having relationships that are meaningful really makes a difference. I do not win an award for the most followers on any of my networks, nor do I have a gaggle of cards in the mail for my birthday. But I do have a good number of people that think of me and celebrate me and love me and that is all I can ask for. Some of these people may not be what I would consider friends that I would want to be with all of the time because I do tend to attract a quirky bunch. But I am honestly glad that I have them and that they put up with me. Over the years people have been removed from life, I feel by God because I have prayed for people to leave my life that are a strain on me. But along the same vein, some of the people that I lost touch with have become some of my greatest friends/allies/family and I am so grateful to have those relationships are restored.

Things are taken and things are given and I think that if we respect the process and understand that some events happen for reasons that we will never understand that we can live our lives in peace. This is why I pray for peace and pray for goodness and pray for safety because just as there are angels watching over us ready to protect and save, there are other forces just as eager to have a hand in our undoing.

Man oh man I have become quite the serious one in my “not so old age”, but don’t worry, I am celebrating life enough over the next week that fun will balance all of this density out.:) Have a great rest of the weekend and a beautiful upcoming week. No matter if it is a day that you are celebrating or a milestone, or even a heartbreak, there is a lesson to be learned and the fact that you are here and alive and able to experience it is a miracle in itself. And if you have someone you love whom you have not reached out to lately, do it today. A few words or a kind gesture will mean more than you can imagine.

Simply~

Dee