So there is always tomorrow right? For many people that is not the case. There are no days left. There time to depart from earth has come, but I am sure that if they could communicate with those of us who are lucky enough to be alive, they would tell us to wake the hell up! (Pardon my French)
I am so guilty of saying that I am going to have a successful business doing this and that and I never fully reach the potential that I am so capable of. Call it lack of drive, lack of confidence or lack of ability, that would be fair to say. But in all honesty, like so many people I am a dreamer, planning out this better life for myself but waiting for the right time. Or, waiting until I am ready. Or whatever other excuse.
Though I am a doer when it comes to many things, I tend to not fully achieve my goals. I either eat perfectly clean and half-way workout, or workout 35 times in 4 weeks (I am doing that now), but screw up and eat movie popcorn and a candy bar (did that today). I don’t know if it that I am afraid to win or if I just feel like there is always time for whatever my goals are. Aren’t so many of us guilty of this? If you are an over achiever and all of your plans have come to fruition, stop reading this. No, really. Stop. Now.
I am thankful everyday to God that I have my daughter and my mom, and my cute place to live and I have an income. But I really don’t utilize all of the gifts that I have. I am such a good party planner. I am so good at coming up with business names and ideas and concepts for people. I am a decent writer. I am a great resume writer. I am good at managing projects.
But…I am doing those things to the level that I could. I am not starting that party planning business, but I am helping people with their parties and just spent close to 100 hours planning my daughter’s party that is up coming. I don’t write everyday as I said I would. And though I am an office manager, it is not fulfilling for me because I am helping someone else with their dream and their livelihood and not doing something that I am passionate about.
I don’t know how to turn those things around. I don’t know how to motivate myself because there is so much I want to accomplish. I guess I need to stick to the advice that I give to others and do one thing at a time. That has always been a problem for me. I have trouble focusing on one goal or one dream or one project. Am I the only one?
So, this was supposed to be about how life is a gift and that we do not need to take it for granted. See, the whole inability to focus thing going on again:). But I hope that someone can relate to this post. I also hope that this will inspire me (and others) to work on at least something that can be done immediately. So, I will get back to the clean eating while working my butt off to get fit with my round 2 of 21 Day Fix! I will also write more. No, REALLY. I will.
Thanks for bearing with me as I share my innermost thoughts and feelings. Even if I ramble and don’t write daily, and if what I say sometimes makes no sense, I hope that something that I have to say will resonate with someone. Remember that life is too short to not live every day to the fullest.
I am ever so grateful for my life and so blessed to have made it to tell about another day.Good night!
“Be grateful for the gift of life on earth. Not all who saw yesterday were lucky enough to see today.”
― Edmond Mbiaka