So, why do good shows go off of the air?

Watching shows through Hulu, Netflix and Amazon Instant Video is that there are so many shows to choose from and some I have never even heard of. The downside, is that it is so easy to click on my Wii remote and choose a show and voila` the show is there, but then I look to the side and see 2008 or 2011 or whatever year for the show that I am watching. Then I realize that it is probably no longer on the air. Then I google it to confirm and then I am so bummed out.

This has happened twice this month. Once with Brotherhood and then with Chicago Code. Because I haven’t consistently had cable over the last 5 or 6 years, unless shows were absolute hits like Scandal, I wouldn’t know when they started or ended. So, I find myself disappointed and let down in the way that someone would feel if a concert of a favorite singer was cancelled or getting stood up on a date. Sound silly? Well, for me it isn’t at all.

When my kiddo goes to sleep at night, it is my time. Time to create, plan, workout, think, snack:), read, organize, etc. Often when I am doing these things, I have a show going on. I really have a hard time sitting in silence. Even when I listen to the audio Bible on my phone app, I sometimes have other sounds in the background, radio or tv. So, it totally sucks to connect with a show and get interested in a character and watch their development and want to see how things go and then it abruptly end.

With Brotherhood and Chicago Code, I really enjoy the characters and their is so much action, which I love. Funnily enough, the lead in Brotherhood is the lead in Chicago Code, Jason Clarke. So when I finished watching Brotherhood, I was excited to see the same actor in a completely different role. Unfortunately, CC is only one season, so I can’t enjoy it as long. So, off for the search for the next amazing political/law enforcement/spy/government show.

But back to the question in my title. There are so many sucky shows that are still on the air, and these shows are such quality shows with seasoned and talented actors, so it seems unfair. I even looked up info as to why they ended and there are a lot of people that are just as disappointed as I. Is it that the general public likes trash tv or that some shows just don’t have that je ne sais quoi> Or, do dramas have problems competing with the over-saturation of reality shows that so many of us are addicted to?

Either way, it stinks to have a great series end. Or a great book. Or a seemingly great relationship. They say that all things come to an end, so maybe I should remember that before getting emotionally invested in things? Or perhaps I should be doing more productive things than scrolling through Netflix for my next tv show crush.:) What’s funny, is I haven’t been into tv this much in 20 years, but there are so many choices nowadays, that it is hard to resist, kind of like hummus and crackers is or a Hershey’s chocolate bar.

Since I will likely repeat the pattern again, I will try not get on here and whine about it any time soon.:) By the way, do you guys have any suggestions on a good series that lasts more than 1 or 2 seasons that I could get into? I also like Downton Abbey too, so my interests are truly all over the place.Would love to hear your suggestions!

simply~

Dee

So, is it wrong for me not to want to talk a lot this year?

If you knew me in real life, you would know that I talk a lot. I am smart and funny and have a lot of smart and funny things to say. I am also critical at times and self-deprecating, but I am anything but quiet. But this year, I want to mute out the noise. Noise coming from me and from others. In my quest to purge material things, I also want to purge unhealthy people/situationships as well.

I have been contacted more than twice by 3 people this week that I would consider toxic or unhappy or in less dignified terms-real buzzkills. All 3 of them have issues. One more than the other 2. But I do too. I am a struggling single parent and I still am unsure what I want to be when I grow up. But, I don’t tell them every time I talk to them about every problem I have. I have learned to turn to prayer or to myself or through writing to heal some wounds.

I spent December doing fun things. My kid’s mega performance at a major university in D.C. was a big part of our month. The rest was family and friends and good food and great experiences. I was sick for half that month and still am, but I did what I wanted and was around people that made me happy. After December, I decided that I want to do that all of the time. Why should I be around people that do not make me happy?  Why should any of us?

So, I would rather be hermitish (not a word I know) than talk and deal with people that I do not value, or those that only call to bitch and complain to me. It’s like in their social media life all is well and they laugh and carry on with everyone online. But then I get to hear the real side. Maybe I don’t care to be people’s confidante anymore. I used to try to fix people and really felt value in being needed. Now I just want to live my life and read great books, eat great food, be around people that I love and vcvs.

Does it sound selfish? If it does, then good! I have never been selfish. I have always put others needs and wants and wishes in front of mine. I get that from my mom. Of course I will still put my daughter and my mom in the front of everything. But everyone else must stand in line from this point on! I have been ignored for months by people, but if/when I don’t jump to return a call they are all over me. It’s like good old dependable Dee. She will always be there. ALWAYSSSSSS. I don’t want to be anymore.

This year, is about fitness, finance and finding my happiness. Beyond that, I am unbothered. I don’t care if people don’t agree with my political opinions. I don’t care if people find me different and insensitive. I am going to give people what they give me. If they give me silence, they will get that in return. If they give me love, I will love them like crazy. But what I will not give anymore, is my time or myself to undeserving and uncaring and selfish folks.

So, I guess that this is my declaration for 2016. Or, my soapbox sermon. Or perhaps my “getting it all off of my chest” session. I hope that you all do what makes you happy in 2016 and always. It is very liberating to love everyone, but at a distance without the entrapment or all of the drama. God bless!

simply~

dee

So, what is grace really? And not the grace you may be thinking of…

So, I am not talking about grace in the way that Madonna talks about it: “She’s got style, she’s got grace, Rita Hayworth gave good face…” (Vogue) I am talking about the Grace of God. Have you ever seen books about Grace in a Christian reference of the word?

I mean, I think that I know what “they” mean, meaning authors and pastors and other church going folk. But, I am not exactly sure how to be granted or how to get or receive or whatever terminology goes along with this holy GRACE.

So, I went to this website called allaboutgod.com. This is what I found:  Definition of God’s Grace – How do theologians define it?
“What is grace? In the New Testament grace means God’s love in action towards men who merited the opposite of love. Grace means God moving heaven and earth to save sinners who could not lift a finger to save themselves. Grace means God sending His only Son to descend into hell on the cross so that we guilty ones might be reconciled to God and received into heaven. ‘(God) hath made him to be sin for us, who knew no sin, that we might be made the righteousness of God in him’” (2 Corinthians 5:21).1

So, I read that and thought, well duh-I knew that. But then it means= wow!!! I am falling short of deserving this Grace from God! So, I read some more and the synopsis was that it is God’s favor. I suddenly realized that perhaps I don’t seem to get anywhere in life, in the way that I would like is because I don’t fully appreciate this gift and privilege I have been given, called Grace. Then I wonder how in the heck I am worthy? Or, maybe I am not? Maybe my lack of faith, or concentration in regards to Christ is the reason I often feel stuck in different areas of my life?

I really want to turn a new leaf and try to accept and inhale and grow in God’s Grace. I am going to work to not take it for granted and especially since I have been armed with the knowledge (again) how awesome and extraordinary the gift of God’s son so that I can live is beyond words. I want to revel in it and know that with God’s Grace I can make it through everything and when I am an old person, I will truly understand what the hymn Amazing Grace really means.

Because if any of us are honest with ourselves, we are blessed beyond measure and don’t even realize how much so. We woke up today, we are reading a blog right now. As large as Grace is, so is the fact that we have life and often live it how we want not considering God in the many choices we make, yet God still has our back. That pure and unconditional love itself explain Grace at its core.

simply~

Dee

 

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So,purging material things is quite tiring.

Project get rid of things we don’t need/use/use/want 2016 is underway. My daughter got rid of around 50 books. So did I. I have also gotten rid of the stray shirt, pj item, old Wii game, decoration, knick-knack and thing-a-ma-bob. It feels quite cathartic, but it is overwhelming to see how much we have, though I am constantly getting rid of things.

I feel like we as Americans just have so much stuff. If some major thing were to go down and I would have to leave here in 30 minutes time, I would only grab my daughter, cat, photos, journals and baby items I have kept. So, why the need for all of the other?

I started right after Christmas and have continued nearly every single day. That is called being blessed when one can get rid of hundreds of items and their home still not be bare. I want this to be the year of lean. Lean closets, lean waist, and lean spending. I am bored with dust bunny covered items just because.

My biggest problem is papers at this point. Ticket stubs I want to keep as memories, programs, fliers, doo-dads from events, postcards, the whole nine. I think February will be about memories that aren’t the normal material things. It will be good for smiles, laughs and cries, and though I may not get rid of a lot of it, it will make more for the next series of events and memories.

Here’s hoping that you are doing or going to do in 2016, the things that are healing for you and close to your heart. I started a one sentence a day 5 year journal on the 1st. I am looking forward to making that a part of my daily routine along with writing, exercising and praying. Blessings to you all!

simply~

Dee

So, it is the end of 2015 and I haven’t…

I haven’t stuck with my end of the bargain-reading tons of blogs and writing tons. But, I have written more this year than in a long time. But, I have got my fitness together more than ever in my life. My kiddo finished her 3rd play of the year this month, I have been sick for nearly a month, we have been running around all year like chickens with our heads cut off, but 2015 was decent. I learned a lot. I realized that I tackle too much. Like I wanted to be fit, and get financially and physically fit and write all of the time.

As much as I think that I am a multi-tasker, on major tasks, it is best for me to tackle one big thing at a time. So now that I have found #21dayfix and it is working, I am reading a lot. Then I am going to add back in writing a lot. Then I will focus attention on a new job. I am going to be less hard on myself in 2016 and treat myself kinder. I still resolve to get more fit, have more money and to do more creative things that I enjoy. But, I am not going to beat myself up if I don’t write every day in 2016 or work out every day, or pay off every debt I have.

I hope that you all have a blessed and happy 2016 and I hope that 2015 was all that you wished for and more.

God Bless and I will  “see” you more in 2016!

~simply

DEE

So, I cut Facebook loose for at least 9 days

Okay, I am in phase 1 of my finding myself/finding who my friends are is my mission. I deactivated Facebook and I set it for 9 days. I kept finding myself all throughout the day wanting to log on. Or check in somewhere, etc. I still have my Instagram and my Twitter. But my IG is not as personal and has some friends, but also strangers. Twitter is even less personal and was started because of a fandom (followers of a show) and now I follow a lot of political people on their.

For me, Facebook was personal and had people on there that I felt close to. There are some great people on there that I love. Don’t get me wrong. But, I want more from a relationship than a like. I want to see who is really tried and true. So many times, people are on there just to judge or be nosy. I will find out who my real friends are from this adventure. That is for sure. I don’t post a lot on IG and even less on Twitter. So, I am going to see how my life is and how it feels with less social on media and more social in person.

I am tired of feeling disconnected. I am tired of not seeing people in 3-D. I am wondering if others feel the same as I? So totally in touch with people electronically, but so out of tune with their real lives or issues because of this technology dependence. I know we will never go back to the 80’s, but so many times I wish we could! We had a good president, terrorism was a word I knew nothing about, and race relations were decent.

I digress. We are in this age of technology addiction. I get it. I am typing right now on my laptop. But I really and truly want  am going to  make life simpler. I am working hard to declutter stuff, use technology less and get rid of people who only weigh me down. In the midst of this, I hope to find what I am looking for. Both in other people and myself.

Simply~

Dee