Frustrated to the brim is how days are ruled

Running is a dream but leaving is not a choice

The need to cry is great but I cannot reveal the tears

Like the boy crying wolf, with each time meaning less

Trying with might to suppress the flow of sorrow

After all, life is good, right?

Losing faith at cheetah speed

My partner has run out of his resoluteness

Others around me are not to blame

I took on a feat comparable to a moon landing

As a fine southern woman, I must put on my big girl panties

As they say, no good deed goes unpunished

How dare I complain when someone else is suffering

Under all circumstances, keep your legs crossed and smile sugar

That is the way of a lady after all

Acting polite and being pleasant is socially acceptable

Showing feelings and telling the truth is unwelcome, shameful

In the world of fallacy and falsities sharing feelings is a no

I will never regret this act of kindness that I chose

It is my duty of love to do so, my debt to repay

Though I give and care willingly

I am slowly losing tiny bits of me

Turning into a mere shell of myself

Prayer is what I am working on to restoreth my soul

Words seem empty and hopeless

Gratefulness and positivity tickle my tongue

In one second flat it is all done

The lucrid taste of looking back ruins the mantra

A rearview mirror of laughter and nostalgia

Poisoning the stew of being fine

Destroying civility-implosion style

With every morn, attitude is anew

The night nags constantly with guilt

Sunshine starts like a spark

Then selfishness of previous times undo it in a flash

Making the question of choices crest like a constant wave

God forgive the unkindness and self absorption

Humanness rears its ugly head during loss

Or the perception of

Taking away precious moments right before us

Disallowing us to cherish what is current

Fevering everything around with regret and remorse

~simply

Dee