I have feelings too-

I have hopes I am full of dreams

I wonder about many things

I pontificate about Important topics

I am deeper than the average Jane

There are many layers to me

But I never get to explore them

I dance to the beat of others’ desires

But I have ideas and wishes

They are almost always brushed aside

Time ticks by and I’ve missed a lot

But I have my kid and that has been enough

That is what I have said on repeat

But when I feel slighted and unnoticed

It hurts and tears at my heartstrings

The time and worry and care in exchange for angst

The lack of regard and consideration weighs heavy

Yet everyday I push forward supporting

Nurturing and caring because of nature

And if I changed my path I would be deemed unfit

But I have feelings too, they are right on the brink

Like a wave starting to crash

I need to be shown appreciation

It is like oxygen to breathing

But being a mother is thankless

The intermittent kudos don’t fully do the trick

I love my life blessing but feel like a nuisance

Instead of the desire to be a role model

A pillar of strength and wisdom

And then I think about my mom

She has feelings too

As old as I am I am not much different than my teen

I expect my mom to be there at all times

And perhaps I don’t always treat her well

It’s funny how we mistreat the ones we adore

Forgetting their need to be validated

That love is the reason for all of this

Getting caught up in the hurt does little to heal

So I will stew in my feelings for now

Tomorrow I will start the day anew

A fresh slate in front of me

A second chance to change the story

Making the narrative different with feelings good…

simply~

Dee copyright October 17, 2018