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So, I skipped church this morning and slept in and sleep is not so bad…and neither is change

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In case I haven’t told you before, I suck at sleeping. I really do. I stay up and think and worry and plan and think some more. My body was overdue for rest, but I hate that I missed church in order to catch up. I ended up going to 2 church functions later, so I felt a bit redeemed for my slumber faux pas. Our church is really in a lot of trouble and is in danger of closing, but we have an action plan, so I pray the 5 year mark that is projected for our closing is a celebration instead. If, and only if people are willing to do what is recommended and let go of their desires then perhaps it will all be okay.

It’s sad to me that our priorities as a country or so out-of-order. I mean I stayed up late going to the gym last night knowing I had church, so I know that I am not holier than thou or anything. I understand why some of the traditional churches like mine are failing, and it is for failure to embrace change. I know that change is scary. I don’t like it to some degree. But it is more of an issue in my personal life regarding not wanting to change than it is at church or work. But there are so many people who care so much about doing things the same way even if the way things are done are not achieving positive results.

For instance, with my weight loss. I eat right 99.9 percent of the time. Five meals a day, 100 oz of water, tons of kale and other veggies, nothing processed, organic or kosher meats, but I don’t sleep enough. So, that perhaps could be why I am not losing more weight. I actually felt more tired after sleeping in, but maybe it is because I am so sleep deficient. My point is, that change is hard to embrace, even when it is what we need the most. Getting rid of guilt and worry and having more faith is linked to every area in our life. School, work, church, habits, etc. It is amazing to me that 7.5 million people have “left religion” since 2012, but God and our faith in Him is related to everything that we do.

I think that the problem lies in human pride and the fact that so many people now are gods unto themselves. Why worship a higher power if you think that you know all and that everything that has happened in your life is solely because of your decisions? That seems to be what a lot of the anti-religion problem stems from. People either don’t want to be held accountable for the cruddy lives they lead or are too narcissistic to think that there is any entity outside of themselves to share or admit their issues.

Anyway, I am losing that much-needed sleep and it is obviously one of my big problems. So I will be you all adieu. Good night and I will catch you on the flip side:)

Simply~

Dee

I have always thought that people that sleep well must have a good conscience…

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So, last night I fell asleep around 745 or so and woke up at 830 to tell my child that she was past time to go to bed.  My body was simply unwilling to allow me to get up and prepare for the next day. So, I got the bright idea to stay in bed until well, today. By 930 or 10 pm, I was itching to get up and check my email and peruse the news and Bravo and read a book or do laundry. I am actually a nocturnal creature trapped in an opposite sleep world. I also do not enjoy sleep. I feel that if I am in bed too long that I am missing out on something. But I stayed there all night-it was overdue to be honest.

I wonder if things that I did in my teens and 20’s that were unscrupulous is what haunts me. Or, if it is the whole solving the world problems thing. Or, if it is the way that I yelled at my ex for the millionth time, or was more impatient that I should have been with my daughter over something trivial. In other words, perhaps I have a checkered past ;), or I am super worried over those things which I have no control over-which is a lot!

I wrote this long spiel on Facebook and a friend told me to read Matthew 24 and Genesis 6 and it was spot on. Scary, but spot on. I feel like I am one of those old southern people that is putting the fear of God in people or something. But I for the first time do wonder and worry a lot about when the world will end. Maybe if I had the clear conscience that others have I could sleep like a baby at  night. 🙂

My mom is one of the sweetest, kindest and most generous people I have ever met and she can take a nap at the drop of a hat. Maybe I should take a play out of her playbook and see what I can do in order to get in the bed at anytime and fall into a deep slumber. But maybe I am just one of those people that makes coffee nervous and am not destined to be a good sleeper.

Simply~

Dee

Okay, so I got busy again…

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I am still up! But, I am trying to be more “clean” so I did cleaning of the kitchen floor and other annoying duties. Then I got roped into “The Goblet of Fire”. It is silly that we have the whole HP series on DVD and when it comes on tv, I have to watch it anyway. About Harry Potter. How many of you Christians think that it is demonic? That drives me freaking crazy!! When my child was in private school for kindergarten (she was bored out of her mind), we would drive one hour in traffic to get to her school. She was about a 3rd grade reading comprehension at that point and though she was smart, I knew she could not read a 600 page book. So, we listened to the CD on the way to her half-day school adventure and on the way back. We would both jump in the car with anticipation of what was coming next. I knew the whole story because I had seen the 5 or 6 movies that were out at that point and had read all of the books. But the audio was amazing. They guy who was the narrator did over 100 voices and was phenomenal.

I digress. My little girl who was not ready for the movies, and probably did not “get” all of the audio, learned so many lessons from Harry Potter and friends. She learned about bullies, and friendship, and good and evil. Much like what she was learning at the Christian school at the time. You know, the teachings on Jesus and the fall of Satan and all of that good stuff. It is very much akin to HP lessons and trials. Not saying that Jesus is similar to an 11 year old wizard with glasses. But I am saying that in HP magical world, HP is the savior of their world. Obviously, in my opinion anyway, Jesus is the savior of the real world. You get the point.

Anyway, we cheered Gryffindor on and tsked when Malfoy came on and my kid asked questions, and it was an awesome way to “geek out” and bond together. We even went to Harry Potter World a couple of years later (which disappointed me), but the point is, we got a lot out of it. One of our friends said that his daughters can’t watch or read about HP because of the spells and incantations. They are just Latin derivatives. They aren’t real, they are just a part of the story. My daughter isn’t doing seances, nor does she dress as a demon for Halloween.

I think sometimes we as Christians and people and parents in general just need to chill the heck out about a lot of things. Stop being so PC and reading something into everything and just live and enjoy life. Of course, I can’t make someone believe in the way that I do. Nor can someone control the way that I live my life or raise my kid. But I think saying things about Harry Potter being anti-Christian, just gives Christians a bad name. I think that having less judgment as Christians would go a long, long way. Like the whole gay issue. But that is another topic all together.

Okay, okay. I am going to try very hard to go to sleep soon. Eight hours in two nights is just not good for anyone. But to be honest, I got a bit re-energized when I found out that I don’t have to work in the morning and I was already off tomorrow night. So, here I go, getting off schedule again. To be honest, I just have a lot of excitement about this new year. More excitement than I have had in a long time and I just can’t hide it. Yes, that was a Pointer Sisters Reference for those of you born before 1990.:)

Nighty night.

Simply~

Dee

Okay, so my sleep mode last night never kicked in…So I am loopy

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I could not sleep for sh– last night. I literally went to bed at 1 and woke up at 130 frantic that I overslept for my morning job that starts at 645. My daughter went through the same thing. She was in my bed, her bed, the chair, everywhere. Needless to say after leaving my job at 830 and running to the store and an hour and a half of school work for her, we crashed. We did not eat lunch, did not pass GO, we fell asleep face down at 11 a.m. and did not stir until 2 pm. We ate a bacon gouda at Starbucks at 2 pm and she did her online class for an hour on the laptop while I ran errands.

I am so thankful for my T-Mobile hotspot on days like this. It was also awesome because I did some business calls and online stuff for the therapy job I do for 30 minutes while in grocery store parking lot. My laptop and my car look like we are on the go, literally. They both need thorough cleaning, and even though I am a neat freak and love for things to be in their place, I am not a clean freak by any means. My toilet is not spotless. My dishes are in the dishwasher and recyclables and trash are always on point. But I do not get out the Windex and Clorox on a regular basis-sue me.

So basically I am all over the place with this post today and I guess it is partly because I am still super groggy and want nothing more than to climb into the bed and stay there. But, if I do that, guess what will happen again? A repeat of today. I cannot have that happen because we are at 98 percent for the year for all of the Language Arts courses and Art, but we are behind on Math because my kid does not like it. We are also behind on Science and History because we love it!  We wanted to save those for last because we love the books and the topics. So, we have to catch up on everything because when you take an online public school curriculum, you have to do it at their pace. They want all of the subjects covered 5 days a week. I get it, but we are almost completely finished in some of them, but not at a high enough percent at the other end. Then we have to study for the big standardized tests. I like structure, but part of the reason I home school is to have control over learning. I think that this is the last year for online public school and on to another type of curriculum…

Anyway, I have to put on my big girl undies and get back to non-holiday scheduling. I will have to set my brain to be a morning person and actually love it. We will have to realize that my daughter will have to go to bed at 8 p.m. again and we can’t drag family activities on as we did for a lot of December. I am doing a good thing by doing social media earlier today and this blog post. The next thing that I will do is do my devotional earlier than 1145 at night. I am super proud of myself for sticking to everything I wanted to do except for the exercise part. Every single time I do Just Dance with my daughter and start to get hot, I start coughing and have to stop. So, I will be glad when that cough drama is over because I got a arm phone sleeve so that I could exercise and keep up with it since my Fitbit is defunct.

I hope that all of you are accomplishing would you would like too. My hopes for all of you is that you continue the momentum and do not falter after a few weeks. After repeating a pattern for a couple of weeks, actions become habits. So keep up the awesome work!! You can do it. And, I can do it! We got this!  Yayyyy us!!!

Simply~

Dee