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So, I have decided to focus on the positive in this world full of negative…

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Today, I am so happy and blessed and ecstatic to be alive. There are people all over the world who did not have that luxury today. There are people within the last week who have lost their lives, or the lives of their loved ones to these terrorists cowards. Heck, it happens everyday all over the world.

So, today I want to live in thankfulness and gratitude. I am thankful to have the heat on and be underneath the covers. I am blessed to have just eaten my chicken sausage, kale and almonds combo and more food at my disposal.

I am happy that I am actually seeing results on my long, long weight loss journey. I am so grateful to have met my ex-husbands’ ex-girlfriend:) who had similar weight loss struggles and see her lose so much weight. She inspired me to become a Beachbody Coach and introduced me to 21 Day Fix!

Of course, I am thankful for my daughter. She colors and lights my world. WIthout her, my life would be blehhhh to the 100th power. And speaking of not making it without her-my mom. She can be a huge pain and is set in her ways, but she is my best friend besides my daughter. I should tell her that sometimes.

Last but not least. Definitely not least. My spiritual life. I am not religious. I am more like a reverent person. I follow Christ. I do not do a great job of imitating Him, but I know through him is eternal life and peace. I am working on the peace part. I am also working on being around people that can only bless me in my journey, not hinder me or it in any way.

I encourage you all to focus on what is good. Even if it is just for today. Or even if it seems totally impossible to do so, there is good in this world. It may seem hard to find, but there is more good than evil. But it’s akin to dropping one drop of oil in water-it changes everything.

Whether you are religious, spiritual, a non-believer or however you may identify yourself, if you are here today there is a reason to be grateful. Blessing and love to you all.

Simply~

Dee

So, I skipped church this morning and slept in and sleep is not so bad…and neither is change

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In case I haven’t told you before, I suck at sleeping. I really do. I stay up and think and worry and plan and think some more. My body was overdue for rest, but I hate that I missed church in order to catch up. I ended up going to 2 church functions later, so I felt a bit redeemed for my slumber faux pas. Our church is really in a lot of trouble and is in danger of closing, but we have an action plan, so I pray the 5 year mark that is projected for our closing is a celebration instead. If, and only if people are willing to do what is recommended and let go of their desires then perhaps it will all be okay.

It’s sad to me that our priorities as a country or so out-of-order. I mean I stayed up late going to the gym last night knowing I had church, so I know that I am not holier than thou or anything. I understand why some of the traditional churches like mine are failing, and it is for failure to embrace change. I know that change is scary. I don’t like it to some degree. But it is more of an issue in my personal life regarding not wanting to change than it is at church or work. But there are so many people who care so much about doing things the same way even if the way things are done are not achieving positive results.

For instance, with my weight loss. I eat right 99.9 percent of the time. Five meals a day, 100 oz of water, tons of kale and other veggies, nothing processed, organic or kosher meats, but I don’t sleep enough. So, that perhaps could be why I am not losing more weight. I actually felt more tired after sleeping in, but maybe it is because I am so sleep deficient. My point is, that change is hard to embrace, even when it is what we need the most. Getting rid of guilt and worry and having more faith is linked to every area in our life. School, work, church, habits, etc. It is amazing to me that 7.5 million people have “left religion” since 2012, but God and our faith in Him is related to everything that we do.

I think that the problem lies in human pride and the fact that so many people now are gods unto themselves. Why worship a higher power if you think that you know all and that everything that has happened in your life is solely because of your decisions? That seems to be what a lot of the anti-religion problem stems from. People either don’t want to be held accountable for the cruddy lives they lead or are too narcissistic to think that there is any entity outside of themselves to share or admit their issues.

Anyway, I am losing that much-needed sleep and it is obviously one of my big problems. So I will be you all adieu. Good night and I will catch you on the flip side:)

Simply~

Dee

So, this may sound super silly, but I was blessed in fruit and veggies this morning

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So, I can’t find my bank card and I am maxed on my CC’s. So I had no money to buy my kale or blueberries this morning. It may sound silly, but on this clean eating plan I am on, I have to eat a lot and specific kinds of foods at certain times. I get to church and at our coffee hour, there was more fruit than I have ever seen. Like seriously! A huge fruit tray and there were maybe 50 people there. And there were lots of veggies too.

Since I have been on this eating plan, I eat Kale with every meal. I saute it on the stove with red pepper flakes and salt/pepper and it is a mainstay here. So the next thing I know, a church member walks straight to me with a big plastic container filled with kale from our community garden and a some zucchini. I said, can I have the kale. She said, sure! I waited until everyone was pretty much gone to get one of the zukes, but I could not believe that simple things that I wanted and needed in the form of fruit and veggies were made available to me and the exact food I needed.

I know that this may sound silly or simplistic. But all I could think was, wow! God provided me with these small seemingly insignificant things and that if he listens or blesses me with those, then the job I want/need can be available to me. If I trust in God, my options and opportunities are endless. It was maybe a coincidence that the food was there, or the 25 dollar check that came in the mail happened to come on a day when I overextended myself in the bank.

But, God always seems to provide for me in some way or in some form. And I can’t believe I am saying this, but things seem to work themselves out. My biggest cross to bear has been not having enough work, i.e. financial woes. But I also have not applied as much as I should have. So this is a case where I decided that I could not only trust God, but I also have to take more action. I have mentioned this before, but there is a fine line between faith/trust/effort. But I am trying to work to find that delicate balance where I give more to God to handle while being sure that I am doing my part. That takes care of trust and effort.

The faith part is the hardest. It is not the same as trust. It is knowing without a doubt that everything will be absolutely positively okay. I guess that faith today helped me make it through the daughter/daddy playdate that I was worried about, and knew that God would make a way for me to get what I needed in the presents of produce. This may be a very wacky post, but I couldn’t lie my head down tonight without sharing the glory of God and that with HIM all things large and small are possible.

Night~

Dee

So, I feel super antsy and need to be quiet and pray but can’t…

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So, a lot of things are going on. My daughter has two exciting offers coming up or opportunities would be the right wording. I am excited about it, but I am trying to figure out if these life-changing events come to fruition, how will I balance everything. It is so silly. I am concerned about how I will babysit the kids I keep and still have her in her play, and then do this even bigger project.

If I could just sit and be still with God, I think that I would be more at ease. I wouldn’t have to figure out how it is all going to flow. I could just give it to God through silent speaking, or whisper it on my knees before getting into bed. I don’t know why those easy actions are so difficult for me sometimes.

I don’t know if I feel that I don’t deserve to be heard. Or, if I just think it will not do any good. Another big thing is that I am so used to trying to fix everything myself. I want to get closer to get God, but there is a fear factor going on, and honestly I do not know how to do it.

I have read the Bible this year more than I did last year, I have also done more in a devotional than I have in the past. But I still do not know how to connect the 2 with prayer to spiritually connect with God in the way that I want to.

I am going to try to do less social media, and less Hulu and less Bravo and figure out how to TRULY put God first. Because I feel like when I do, clarity will be available to me, and I will be less anxious, and I will also have a different and better life.

When I go to sleep tonight, I am going to try this and see how it goes. The next time I write on here, I will let you know how it goes. If you have a strong relationship with God, or if you know how to speak with God and turn your problems over to Him, I would love to hear from you…

Good night, sweet dreams and God Bless.

~Simply Dee

Poetry can be found everywhere and in many things, even in blogging…

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I was watching one of my new favorite spy shows today on my Amazon-The Americans, and I realized that the Russian language can be very beautiful and even poetic sounding. I was in the shower and listening to it and I think if I had been watching the people and listening, I would not have picked up on the beauty.

I always thought that Russian and German and many of the Eastern European languages sounded a bit harsh, with no melody. And, I am not against those people or anything, I am of German heritage. I just never thought that they held the romance that French or Italian does. Then, I heard someone speaking Russian at Barnes and Noble one day and I thought that it was French. I guess maybe different regions speak it in different ways with different accents. Very similar to the way that the U.S. is with Northern accents, Southern accents and Midwestern accents.

So between that day and this television show, I realized that if we listen close enough or even look close enough that poetry and beauty is all around us in so many situations. That person that angrily beeped when you didn’t go through the light fast enough could be coming from the house of her sister who has dementia and maybe she in a hurry to get to her job to help pay the bills for them both. Or, that annoying person that answers for an insurance company when calling about claims that has a thick accent and can’t seem to understand anything, she/he is working for nickels and learning English in the process and for them it is a great feat.

I am sometimes the person honking the horn, and I am sometimes the one who gets annoyed. In the midst of my annoyance, I truly do try to think of people and though they may seem selfish or dense, who knows what is going on in their life. There are tons of things that happen where ugly and evil are written all over these particular incidents. But somehow, in the midst of a storm in life, you will hear something beautiful. Like the mom who forgave the person who killed her son. Or the person that risked their life to get one more person out of the burning building. I do not know how I spun hearing the Russian language spoken on a show into all of this. Nevertheless, beauty and poetry are everywhere, and our creator is the author and artist of it all.

Simply~

Dee

Tonight I will be blogging about something that is hard for me to control…

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MY OPINION!! I have the hardest time keeping my mouth shut, or more accurately, my laptop shut when it comes to stating how I feel about something, especially something that has gotten under my skin. I am not one of those ‘messy’ somebody’s who goes on social media and shames anyone or points the finger directly. I may say something like: “I was reading a blog or forum today and saw how stay at home mom’s are complaining about snow days…” So, the thing is, I did read that, but it was on someone’s FB who I have been thinking of unfriending. A. I only met her once when hanging out with a mutual mom friend. B. She’s kind of annoying. C. She never wants to be around her kids! Either dates, mom’s night out or being pissed at the schools for being safe in bad weather.

So, I pulled one of my shady tricks. I didn’t mean to lie, I did read the info. But it was from her. Funny thing is, she has only liked maybe 2 of my pics or posts since November and never comments. I have wanted to unfriend her. But, she sure as heck jumped in on this one. She claims that she works-but I have not heard that she did. She also said on the post that: “Education is the problem. That parents are upset that their children are not getting consistent education.” For being out 2 or 3 days this month to save their lives from icy roads? Why can’t these people see their blessings? Maybe I need a  man, or for my business to take off. I don’t know what I need, but I need to stop being so annoyed by these non-factors.

She is most definitely one of those. Somewhat attractive, super insecure, but super vain at the same time. A person that is not even close to being self assured but is trying so desperate to get attention.  Ever met someone like that? They take a gazillion pictures of themselves and then they talk about how fat they are. Anyway, I don’t know if now that I am not a young 20 something anymore, if I have just have no patience or what the deal is. I come off as judgey and as you all know I am trying to work on that. But am I the only person in the world that thinks that the internet is great and educational, but our society seems to be dumber now?

Maybe it is the Virgo in me, or just the me in me? But I am just tired of people that do not want to take responsibility for their choices and so they complain about it all the time. Don’t like being around your kids? Give custody to your ex. Hate your job? Find another one? Sick of being heavier than you like? Lose weight. (I am working on my 30 lbs) Unhappy in a relationship? End it. You get the point. I guess I just wish people would be honest. Or positive. Or proactive. I may not be the greatest success career wise. Heck, I do not even have a professional career right now. But I am happy. I of course need and want more money to do some of the things that I long to do.

But, I can keep working on getting there by trying hard and applying to positions and working on my small business. I don’t think that being negative and bi—ing and complaining will change anything. Of course we all need to vent. I do it from time to time. Probably a lot on this blog I vent. But I don’t do that every conversation on here or with friends. It’s just not positive or fun. Life is too short to always be unhappy. I don’t know how true it is that you can speak things into existence. I err on the side of trying to stay positive and not even utter the bad. Because I have not had things just come to me in life. I figure I need all the help I can get.

So whether speaking things out loud or thinking thoughts that are negative can have real effects on one’s life is valid, I say try to be a glass half full kind of person. What can it hurt to smile and be friendly and have kind words to say? I mean if someone is rude to you, handle your business, but don’t ever be the one that is the nasty person. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. The Golden Rule works every time. I will try very hard to keep that in mind when I am trying not to judge people whom I deem as fools…