So, a lot of things are going on. My daughter has two exciting offers coming up or opportunities would be the right wording. I am excited about it, but I am trying to figure out if these life-changing events come to fruition, how will I balance everything. It is so silly. I am concerned about how I will babysit the kids I keep and still have her in her play, and then do this even bigger project.
If I could just sit and be still with God, I think that I would be more at ease. I wouldn’t have to figure out how it is all going to flow. I could just give it to God through silent speaking, or whisper it on my knees before getting into bed. I don’t know why those easy actions are so difficult for me sometimes.
I don’t know if I feel that I don’t deserve to be heard. Or, if I just think it will not do any good. Another big thing is that I am so used to trying to fix everything myself. I want to get closer to get God, but there is a fear factor going on, and honestly I do not know how to do it.
I have read the Bible this year more than I did last year, I have also done more in a devotional than I have in the past. But I still do not know how to connect the 2 with prayer to spiritually connect with God in the way that I want to.
I am going to try to do less social media, and less Hulu and less Bravo and figure out how to TRULY put God first. Because I feel like when I do, clarity will be available to me, and I will be less anxious, and I will also have a different and better life.
When I go to sleep tonight, I am going to try this and see how it goes. The next time I write on here, I will let you know how it goes. If you have a strong relationship with God, or if you know how to speak with God and turn your problems over to Him, I would love to hear from you…
Good night, sweet dreams and God Bless.