I was sitting at my daughter’s Saturday morning class in a funk because of some stupid things I have been doing. I saw a glorious woodpecker on a tree doing his thing. He was doing the job that he was born to do. He hopped from one tree to another, finding a prime tree to peck, I guess. But his entire focus was on what he was born to do.
Of course, Woodpeckers are more simplistic and do not have the same level of intelligence or the ability to do all that humans can do. But, for a few minutes, I envied the woodpecker. He has a purpose, he was fulfilling it and what it boils down to is I wish I had it that easy. I have a decent amount of intelligence, but I have either made moves that make no sense, or haven’t had the courage to make them.
I am trying this whole year to step out on faith and try something new, but some of the things I have tried may not be what is truly best for me. I wouldn’t say I lack discernment, I just do not use it enough. I want what I may not need, and I need what I don’t always want. I don’t know if it is an early mid-life crisis or if I an all out identity crisis. I think the whole “man” thing I have had going on has messed with my judgment or common sense.
Whatever it may be, I am ready to step out into greatness with great people that will benefit me, not harm me in any way. I just don’t know how to stay on track. It’s like little distractions or things get in my way. I am trying to walk the path of the righteous and of the successful but I have a really hard time stepping away from what is not for me instead of stepping into what is good for me.
Does the post not make a lot of sense? Sorry. My mind is on so much and I am trying to sort it all out. I didn’t mean to use Word Press as a way to do so.:) Go forward and live out your purpose, while I am still figuring out mine.:)