Spring fever is the answer. It is all there is to it. I of course am not ready for mating season:) but it literally feels like there is this major urge to find love and I think it is winter blues. Sound crazy? Probably is, but I have gone through this quite a few times and then I get bored with the prospect of trying to change my very planned and packed schedule around someone who I don’t know that well.
I have realized, that out of all of the guys I have talked to and met as of late, that one that is not around a lot is perfect for me. Sound harsh? Sorry! But it is the truth. My child is such a major part in my life and I am doing new career oriented things that I am excited about. So, having a guy that has a full plate sounds like a match made in heaven to me.
The guy I am going out with Wednesday already makes me feel bad for making him wait a week and I know that is ridiculous. But, he has no child, and though he is a big time attorney, when work is over it is just him. Because my ex rarely even sees my child, there is little date time for me. I am fine with that to an extent but I wouldn’t mind going out a few times a month.
Though my spring fever is in high gear, I dread/am scared about Wednesday. I don’t know which dress to wear and I don’t know whether to meet him before the networking event, or after. I feel like the playbook has changed so much because back in the day, people just asked me out in person. This whole texting, emailing and voicemail thing combined is annoying and tiring!
Part of me is excited and elated and the other part of me can’t wait for it to be over already. 48 hours from now, the date will be over or ending. Of course you all will hear an update about how it went. I’m on pins and needles here. Working out just now eased the fretting over it a little. But dang, I just wish I could see whether this guy is going to be a waste of my time or a part of my future (scared, nervous girl talking).