So, am I the only one that doesn’t like to admit when they screwed up?

I still have a hard time admitting when I am wrong. Not in a prideful way like if I bet on a basketball bracket, or if I say that a certain actor was in a movie, and it was someone else. I am talking about admitting wrongdoing when I think that there will be repercussions that could cost me my job, or someone’s opinion of me. Since I am an adult, I should not be afraid of saying I screwed up, but I kind of am.:)

Take today for instance, I let a client file slip through the cracks and now we owe them money. It was an innocent mistake, because honestly I have not had training at all in the position that I am doing. But, I should have done checks more often or had a better system of doing things. I let my boss know that we owe money and it is my fault, but I kind of blamed the insurance company as well so I would not have to take complete credit for screwing up.

That is probably a bit childish, pathetic or just straight up dishonest, but I don’t like to disappoint people. I don’t like to make them think that I am not dependable or competent. I don’t want to embarrass myself either. So, I am going to either have to start being perfect in all that I do or have to “man” up and tell the complete truth.

It can’t be that difficult, right? I have managed to clean eat for almost 3 months(which is a major miracle!), I moved over 600 dollars away from home with no friends to DC, I stand up to people who some people would be fearful of and never let people walk over me.  So surely I can just suck it up when I fail and lay everything on the line. At least I hope so?

So, is lying on a Weight Watcher’s app the same as telling someone a half-truth?

I just started WW points a couple of weeks ago. I have dropped between 5-7 pounds. But what is funny, I have found that when I am putting things into the app that I have eaten, I have “accidentally” left off a slice of cheese. Or, the to-go salad tiny packet of dressing-hey it all adds up. I was kind of wondering if I am doing this subconsciously or was I really forgetful that day, or do a lot of us tell only part of the truth a lot of the time?

It’s akin to someone saying that they gave a “little” more than they actually did to a charity because after all they were just rounding-up! Or, telling your current love that you did talk to your ex-boyfriend recently when HE called, not mentioning that he was returning YOUR call.:) Or if someone weighs veggies in the self-check out line and types in a cheaper squash, I mean what does it matter? It is STILL squash right?

I was thinking of all of this when I was looking what I have eaten over the last few days realizing that I had left out points here and there. It’s almost like I left those small items out being afraid to go over my points as if there is a WW counselor living with me, or I will be punished severely if I use my bonus points for the week. I mean of course not getting into shape is punishment enough, but you get the idea.

I am going to pay more attention in the future about what I say or do not say because I think that it is very telling about what I feel about myself, or others. I am also going to pay attention to what my daughter tells or does not tell others, or other people who I know. I wonder if many of us are so concerned that we will look bad that it is better to look good in a situation, truth be darned.

Anyway, just food for thought…

Simply~

Dee