I still have a hard time admitting when I am wrong. Not in a prideful way like if I bet on a basketball bracket, or if I say that a certain actor was in a movie, and it was someone else. I am talking about admitting wrongdoing when I think that there will be repercussions that could cost me my job, or someone’s opinion of me. Since I am an adult, I should not be afraid of saying I screwed up, but I kind of am.:)

Take today for instance, I let a client file slip through the cracks and now we owe them money. It was an innocent mistake, because honestly I have not had training at all in the position that I am doing. But, I should have done checks more often or had a better system of doing things. I let my boss know that we owe money and it is my fault, but I kind of blamed the insurance company as well so I would not have to take complete credit for screwing up.

That is probably a bit childish, pathetic or just straight up dishonest, but I don’t like to disappoint people. I don’t like to make them think that I am not dependable or competent. I don’t want to embarrass myself either. So, I am going to either have to start being perfect in all that I do or have to “man” up and tell the complete truth.

It can’t be that difficult, right? I have managed to clean eat for almost 3 months(which is a major miracle!), I moved over 600 dollars away from home with no friends to DC, I stand up to people who some people would be fearful of and never let people walk over me.  So surely I can just suck it up when I fail and lay everything on the line. At least I hope so?