Nice: a sad, absurd word
I’ve always believed NICE to be a valuable attribute
Going over hill and dale to show people I care
Holding doors, assisting others, smiles and laughs
But reward is little and the pain is huge
Losing my cool and putting down my foot
‘Tis merely a result of consternation or hurt
Happy-go-lucky, a label I have gladly worn
Over time has become tattered and torn
Not even sure if nice fits any longer, it’s so misshapen and worn
Tossing and turning through questions of who I am
Merely reveals my weakness and desire to please
I long to change, to be lackadaisical, carefree
The type of person that many hope to be
Not this small, skeletal version of my true self
An overall naivete that people are inherently good
A pattern repeated more than the hairs on my head
I want to be untrusting and cold
Only looking out for self and gain
But the Godly part inside won’t relent
This half lamb/wolf persona ends on a sad note
I sharpen my teeth, toughen up, yet I slip from grace
Meanwhile, true wolves escape triumphant, once again
I walk with hat in hands, head bowed in defeat
No matter how victorious I feel, I know losing is on my horizon
Still I muster up courage to face another morn
Smile plastered on, affirmations on my tongue’s tip
By afternoon’s crest, I feel surrender yet again
The battle far from over, a war that I probably will never win
~Simply
Dee
Copyright July 10th, 2019
Simply Dee in D.C. 
This reminds me of what we talked about when I told you about a falling out with a friend of mine. I can’t remember your exact words but it made me feel better about it. Validated what I was feeling. It was along these lines that maybe I’ve been too nice and just going with whatever bs but that I was probably just tired of it now. I think you’re totally right. I still feel bad though that a long friendship might have ended but it’s probably for the best.
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You’re an awesome woman. Strong, kind and insightful.
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Thank you! You’re awesome and so thoughtful.😊
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