So, this is super off-topic from my usual self-help, existentialist type of deal. But I just finished my fall Gilmore Girls binging season. And now I am on to Scandal. Emotional to the core with both of them in different … Continue reading
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So, perhaps romance and true love is not just for tv dramas…
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Over the last year and a half I have gotten into television dramas. A lot! I have not had cable most of that time, so I have binge-watched shows like Scandal and Parenthood and Nashville. When I had cable, I found myself dumbing down with reality crap.
These dramas have me or have had me wanting to be in love. Cookie and Lucious’ chemistry on Empire and Rayna and Deacon’s true love on Nashville and “Olitz” with their scandalous affair, made me think that those stories had to come from some real life situations correct?
So, there goes the dilemma that I go through at the end of every summer. I have a birthday coming up, then the holidays, and I don’t have fancy parties to go to because I have not significant other. I partially want that part of my life to be revamped and the other part of me wants to enjoy raising my child.
I feel guilty for not looking for romance, and guilty for thinking of it. It’s like I am fulfilled in so many ways, but certain songs or show or movies will spark that desire for the company of a man. Not just any man, but THE man. A man who will change everything for me.
The kind of man who would step in and be a great dad to my kid. The kind of person that would bring change to my life, but not disruptions that are unpleasant. Someone that would fit perfectly in a four-part puzzle. Me, my kid, God and “the guy”.
I go through these phases of trying online dating, and i will respond for a month and then get overwhelmed by so many responses (def.not bragging) that I send them to spam. Then, when I need my ego stroked, I dip back in the pool again. I think that I want a guy, but not with the strings.
I want what is good on paper for the sake of saying that my life is full. But then I feel like a fool for feeling like it is full without a man. Is this confusing to you? Because it sure is heck is confusing for me.
What I get out of these shows besides entertainment, is hope. I get the feeling that I can be that person that someone can’t live without. I can be the person that someone would give up anything for.
I think the real deal is that I want to meet someone organically. I want God to just drop the right person in my lap as I am picking out blueberries or as I wait for my mom at the airport. Or even when I am getting my license renewed.
I don’t want to find someone on my own because I suck at relationships. Or, I suck at the choosing. And because I am not one of those people who can hear God speaking to me, I need for things to happen in a manner that I can be sure that it is all God and not me-if possible.
Signing off for now Hopeless Romantic
aka
Simply Dee~
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So, I am blogging about my usual-EVERYTHING:)
Tonight was decent. I was actually babysitting, and fell asleep for 2 hours. But hey, in my defense, the kid is almost 10 and my kid was building a fort with her in the next room. So all was good. I am just so fatigued because I have that early morning gig for 2 hours Monday-Friday and I am always so afraid that I am going to miss it that I wake up literally off and on all night looking at my cell. I am just not an early morning person. My ideal life? Go to bed at 3 and wake up at 10 or 11-true story.
So, I was just writing to a friend who is a decade older about how sad it is that she is moving soon and I haven’t hung out with her pretty much the whole time I have known her. Back story, I used to babysit her kids after school and one of those “kids” is soon to be 21, and I have a much younger kid. So, we have been in each other’s lives, but not really in each other’s close circle of friends because we are at just such different life stages. As I type this I truly cannot believe we met 10 years ago. I did not take her for granted because we were really connected by her kids, but it’s kind of like I knew she was in the D.C. area and did not think that she would leave. Well, she got a cash offer on her house, which is amazing because houses are super expensive here. And, she is out of here in a few weeks!! So much for her living across town, but her new digs down south will be fab so I see a road trip in the future:).
Tomorrow, we are going tubing. Not river tubing, but snow tubing! Yay! I am taking my kid out of obligation. Not that I do not like going. Not because I do not enjoy doing activities with her, but because I just want to lie in bed and hibernate. I am sure that once we get there it will be fun. I bought food to take including a salad for me because I am eating healthy again, I will have to talk about that next post. Anyway, I just don’t want to do the three-hour round trip of driving after doing an out-of-state trip last week. I am not even sure that I will participate with her because we are taking another kid. But more than likely I will because it really is loads of fun. Right now, I can envision sitting in the lodge and just watching from the windows:)
This week has FLOWN by. We did not get to go ice skating, because today and yesterday were super cold days. A day that was a nice day, got wrecked because my kid’s bff got hurt in a ski accident and we went and played board games with her. So, the next month we are going to conquer all of the outdoor skating venues in D.C. area because I am wondering where did winter go? Spring is next month!
I am super stoked right now for a few reasons. For one, my daughter tried out for another muscial this week and got it! The director told her and call backs aren’t even until next week. Another thing, we are going to NYC in a month for a whole weekend to hang with my brother, the 21-year-old girl that I mentioned above, and for an acting thing for my daughter. Lastly, my friend gave me her Hulu password info tonight because I canceled Hulu and I get to watch Scandal because I missed it last night. I do not know if my heart can take it! Last week was INTENSE.
I hope that whatever you guys do with your weekend, it is what you want to do. At least after coming back from tubing, I get a free dinner from the girl’s parents for taking her kid tubing. So, score! Enjoy the weather whatever it may be, because remember, any time that we are live to see the sun rise and set is a good day!
Simply~
Dee
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So, I am watching Empire. I feel like it is quality programming. Will it last?
I am so excited about this Taraji Henson and Terrence Howard program on Fox. I love music of all types and think that these are two very talented actors that are typically in “black” movies, which many people do not see a lot of. This is a great way for mainstream America to see how awesome they are. I get so into shows like this and Smash and other shows that start off so fab and the programming cannot or do not continue to be stellar. So far, the comedy side of it is super-duper on point and I love the retro looks. It’s like Olivia Pope who? That awesome Mahoganysesque hat and coat are killer.
I am also excited for the new Marvel show, the return of Once Upon a Time and House of Cards. Scandal is a show that I used to love and have high hopes that I will feel that way once again, if the writers can turn the tide. I am bummed that Mad Men is ending and I am also a bit let down that Downton Abbey turned into a soap opera. But I still have a love for the beautiful costumes and aristocracy.
Anyway, those are my thoughts on current tv. I have not been into shows like this since the Sopranos, Sex and the City, Seinfeld and Friends. I am glad that I have interesting things to watch now that I am out of school!! And because I have no dating life:) Check out Empire. It is frigging awesome!
Night for now.
Simply~
Dee
Simply Dee in D.C. 