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Do you ever feel like when people say ask and you shall receive that it doesn’t apply to you?

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So, I have a decent life. Cute little condo/apt/flat. Adorable and intelligent kid. Fat cat. Fabulous mom. But, I am lacking the “big money” and “the man”. Those 2 things get to me sometimes. The money more than the man. To be honest, I don’t want “big” money, just enough money.

I think about all of the tragedies in Kenya and other parts of Africa and the Middle East with those sick and twisted terrorists and I know that I have a good life. I really do. But, I am so sick of waiting for my ship to come in. I want to go on the longer vacation or not have to find a dress for a wedding that I am a part of on clearance.

Nothing fancy, just having a consistent income that can provide for us without the help of my mom. Having to pay her back is always on my mind. She doesn’t want the money back or doesn’t consider it a loan when she helps me. But nonetheless, I am grown and do not want to need her to help me out. I have always worked jobs even when I am bright enough and educated enough to have a real career.

I am so not lazy. I am motivated to do better. I just haven’t gotten there. Do not get me wrong, I am not job searching 24/7. But there are limitations on jobs that I can take. They can’t be nights, weekends, or with travel because I am a single parent with no family nearby.

I do not spend every waking moment looking for the dream job. I work to pay my bills and hope for the best and put in an application when I can. I just kind of feel like it is hard to find the kind of work I need to fit my schedule with my child and to provide for us without me working multiple gigs.

I mean, I take care of children, I run errands and dog walk. There is no shame in my game. But when one of my part-time things come to an end, like my recent loss of 600 per month, I am screwed. I was beginning to get ahead and pay some credit cards down. I really owe a lot on car repair ones as well as a vet credit account and I was really cutting them down substantially. Until last week.

So, here I am struggling even more, again. I want to do something real, with more permanence. Something I love. I don’t want to help people with their dreams all of the time while wishing I was doing anything else than working for them or with them. It’s not the people, I just want to do something meaningful to me that will last and pay the bills.

That is where I get around to the part about when people say: Just ask God and you will receive, I want to believe it works for me. I know God loves me and always has my back. But, I never have a door open, or at least I don’t feel like it. I feel like I have a tiny porthole in the form of a tutoring gig. But I don’t have a larger window or sliding glass door in the form of something substantial.

I have student loans to pay and credit accounts and have to keep a roof over our head and the car running. Of course, we do some leisure activities and my kid is forever acting in one gig or another, so we have some money. But since I lost that little job last week, I have to say goodbye to cable this week. We did not have it for over 2 years and my mom suggested that my daughter would love to have it again.

In the meantime, I have gotten used to it and now I have to tell my night-time entertainment goodbye. But that is such a First World Problem and I know it. But, it doesn’t mean that I don’t want to do better and provide better and improve myself.

I hope that someone out there like Revolutionary Christian or another of you wonderful readers and bloggers will pray for me. I really am at a tricky point in my life right now. I got this major feeling that God was helping me to leave a situation that I detested in order to stop being stagnant and being stuck in “just mode”.

Just getting by. Just getting enough sleep. Just making ends meet. Just doing what I gotta do.

Thanks for listening and reading and bearing with me while I try to figure out how to trust God more and how to believe that I can achieve greater things and that God will fix it all for me.

Good night.

Simply~

Dee

Okay, so I got busy again…

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I am still up! But, I am trying to be more “clean” so I did cleaning of the kitchen floor and other annoying duties. Then I got roped into “The Goblet of Fire”. It is silly that we have the whole HP series on DVD and when it comes on tv, I have to watch it anyway. About Harry Potter. How many of you Christians think that it is demonic? That drives me freaking crazy!! When my child was in private school for kindergarten (she was bored out of her mind), we would drive one hour in traffic to get to her school. She was about a 3rd grade reading comprehension at that point and though she was smart, I knew she could not read a 600 page book. So, we listened to the CD on the way to her half-day school adventure and on the way back. We would both jump in the car with anticipation of what was coming next. I knew the whole story because I had seen the 5 or 6 movies that were out at that point and had read all of the books. But the audio was amazing. They guy who was the narrator did over 100 voices and was phenomenal.

I digress. My little girl who was not ready for the movies, and probably did not “get” all of the audio, learned so many lessons from Harry Potter and friends. She learned about bullies, and friendship, and good and evil. Much like what she was learning at the Christian school at the time. You know, the teachings on Jesus and the fall of Satan and all of that good stuff. It is very much akin to HP lessons and trials. Not saying that Jesus is similar to an 11 year old wizard with glasses. But I am saying that in HP magical world, HP is the savior of their world. Obviously, in my opinion anyway, Jesus is the savior of the real world. You get the point.

Anyway, we cheered Gryffindor on and tsked when Malfoy came on and my kid asked questions, and it was an awesome way to “geek out” and bond together. We even went to Harry Potter World a couple of years later (which disappointed me), but the point is, we got a lot out of it. One of our friends said that his daughters can’t watch or read about HP because of the spells and incantations. They are just Latin derivatives. They aren’t real, they are just a part of the story. My daughter isn’t doing seances, nor does she dress as a demon for Halloween.

I think sometimes we as Christians and people and parents in general just need to chill the heck out about a lot of things. Stop being so PC and reading something into everything and just live and enjoy life. Of course, I can’t make someone believe in the way that I do. Nor can someone control the way that I live my life or raise my kid. But I think saying things about Harry Potter being anti-Christian, just gives Christians a bad name. I think that having less judgment as Christians would go a long, long way. Like the whole gay issue. But that is another topic all together.

Okay, okay. I am going to try very hard to go to sleep soon. Eight hours in two nights is just not good for anyone. But to be honest, I got a bit re-energized when I found out that I don’t have to work in the morning and I was already off tomorrow night. So, here I go, getting off schedule again. To be honest, I just have a lot of excitement about this new year. More excitement than I have had in a long time and I just can’t hide it. Yes, that was a Pointer Sisters Reference for those of you born before 1990.:)

Nighty night.

Simply~

Dee