When I am alone at night and it is so quiet, I seem to get bothered with everything. It’s like the weight of the world is standing on my chest at night. I feel alone and pathetic and troubled. Not that I don’t have my issues, but life is quite good. Though it is so cliche’, all is right with my world when the sun is shining and the birds are chirping. I am jovial and positive and I feel good about myself.
I understand now why in movies there is the dark figure that is evil and the bright figure that is good and pure. As Olivia Pope says: Wearing the White Hat. Not that when one feels down they don’t wear the white hat, but when I feel down and low, I think down and low. Everyone aggravates me. Nothing goes right. I find that this is generally the case when I have too much time alone, or when I am sitting and pondering the world, my world, when many people are fast asleep.
So, right now I have a good outlook. I feel accomplished today. We bought a lot of supplies for my daughter’s party in November. I know, a long time away but if I explained all we had to make then it would make sense. I filled my car with gas. I had a 30-minute conference call for work. I took my daughter and a kid I care for to pottery. I dropped that kid off and picked up a child for another family I keep and now the kids are playing. I am planning dinner, going to turn on Netflix. Today was productive! and try later on to not get the darkness envelop my being and torment me. But instead use my sunny day thinking and get some good old-fashioned rest. (Here’s hoping!)
My biggest challenge is to try later on to not let all of the darkness envelop my being and torment me. But instead, use my sunny day thinking and get some good old-fashioned rest. (Here’s hoping!) Hopefully whatever you have on your mind or to-do list, you can turn it off when you lie down tonight. I am beginning to think that this whole sleepus interruptus thing is a culprit in my weight not budging!