Okay, we have discussed this before, or maybe not. But I have 2 Master’s degrees. Nonsensical? Yeah, sort of. I should have gotten a PhD, but then I would have been very very educated with not a lot of professional work experience. Now I am just very educated with a lot of professional work experience. True story is that I just want to make enough money to take a nice vacation yearly and fly home once a year to see family (because my mom comes here 4 or 5 times a year), and to pay my bills and just live a normal life.

Have I settled for mediocre? No, I just really want to be here to raise my daughter. In less than 10 years she will be voting age. I figure that I can publish my big masterpiece then, so in the meantime I just want to provide for us, but watch her chase and reach her dreams and goals. I don’t think I am a super mom or anything, but I am pretty darn good.:) I could have a high-power D.C. job like so many families that we know, but I am not a big government or corporate kind of gal. I am just too creative or non-conformist, or maybe just too weird. I’m not sure.

I so wish that I could have gotten a good job at 21 right out of college and knew exactly what I wanted to do and stuck with it. I really do, but I have always had the brains, but lack of focus. I did alarmingly well for myself in my mid-20’s when I had a small business. I made more money then than I do now, and I called the shots. It was a cleaning service, I know it wasn’t flashy and I wore sweats a lot. But I made a good bit of moolah for a single girl with little debt and low rent.

Fast forward to now. I have too many credit accounts open. They are mostly due to car and vet repairs. Literally 3 of them are for those things. But, I am good at paying my bills, my credit score is decent, but if I made more money I could knock out my debt in less than a year. My car is paid for, but it has been to the shop 5 times this year. As all things do when they get old, they tend to not work as well. But hey, no car payment, so I can’t complain.

But I am ready for that break. You know, when you apply for a job and you actually hear back, and get it~! Granted, I am trying to find a professional position from home and it is tough if you do not have an IT or graphic design background. My expertise is social media and technical writing, like proposals or grants. But, I do not have a lot of experience with grants, outside of school work, so it means not grant-writing job for me. I am waiting for God to put it on someone’s heart to give me a chance and hire me.

I am smart, well-educated, hard-working and extremely organized. I am the kind of person that is given a task at 3:01 and I jump on it at 3:02. I work on an extremely part-time basis, remotely, for a psychiatry office in NYC. I am very efficient in that position and I have done stellar work. But it is literally like 20 hours a month right now. So, if that could triple or quadruple, we would be cooking with Crisco. If you have never heard that last statement, or do not know what Crisco is then you are probably not from the south.:)

Please send positive vibes and prayers my way that I get a job that will truly support us. I just lost my morning part-time job yesterday due to relocation, and though that is not many hours, it was 600 dollars a month extra. I have basically been piece-mealing my income with 3 different part-time jobs. That is why I get mad when people claim that they can’t find a job. In some areas, that could be true. But in an area like where I live, it is because people want a “position” and not a job. I want a position too, but I want to eat and have a place to sleep, so I do what I ‘gotta’ do.

If I went to work in the city and paid for before and after care for my kid, It would be a 10 hour commute and I would have to pay for someone to take care of my kid 2 hours before and after school, I would have less money coming in than I do now. The summers would literally break me! Nannies here start at 15-20 an hour and camps are 350 a week, and are not even all day long. So, I would have to pay someone to take my kid to camp because they do not start until 9 and pay someone to pick her up because they only last until 3 or 4. It is an endless battle. So besides truly wanting to be here with her, it makes sense economically.

I hope that you all have a beautiful week! It is 60 degrees in D.C. today which is lovely. Write soon!

Simply~

Dee