So, today was a roller coaster kind of day. But all is well…

We started the day early so we could catch another round of the DC Shields playing FDNY at George Mason University after getting an oil change. Well, the oil change turned into 450 dollars! I so did not have the money, so I got the oil change and tire patched and new wiper blades and went to the game anyway and cheered as if I was not stressed about dollars yet once again! Good news is that DC beat NY and we had fun. So I go home and texted a friend to see if I could borrow her car to take 3 of the kids I sit for and my daughter to an amusement park tomorrow. She wasn’t into it. So, I felt really bad about it but had to email the 2 families while they were at work today to tell them my dilemma. I knew they wouldn’t be mad because a tie rod issue is so very important and my car could have really been in an accident if I had not had it checked out.

So, I came home and slept because I was so upset about letting people down who had spent over 40 dollars per ticket and trying to figure out how to come up with 336 extra dollars. One of the mom’s was nice enough to offer her car, or to pay for half of a rental. I thought that it was sweet. But then I still had the issue of not being able to fix my car. So, I realized I had 70 dollars credit left on one car credit card and 70 dollars on another card. I had money in the bank, but I was afraid to spend it all because I don’t like to have empty pockets when driving 150 miles round-trip. Long story short, my friend let me borrow the 170 until I get one of my 3 checks at the end of the week.

The moral to this long drawn out story is, I never gave up. I knew it would work out. Even though I slept it off for a couple of hours, I did not panic or cry. I went to the second basketball game and watched DC Shields beat the DC Snipers. I took my friend to Starbucks and then I went and printed my tix for amusement park. I got my car fixed, not only because I put good out there and so good comes to me (most of the time), but because somewhere deep inside I know that God will take care of me. I do not have the big house, or a husband taking care of me but I always squeak by. I am not going to lie, I am sick of barely making it financially. but God always provides. Whether a friend comes along to help me or I get to work extra hours I make it somehow. I can owe that to God. Every. Single Time.

So, all in all today was good. My car is good as new. Kind of.:) I have packed all of our snacks and made our lunches and am preparing breakfast so it can be heated up in the morning. All is well! Now on to making more money. I am going to keep plugging away with this faith thing and I know that greater days are ahead!

Night and hope that you have faith in bad times, not only when times are grand.

Simply~

Dee

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I have always thought that people that sleep well must have a good conscience…

So, last night I fell asleep around 745 or so and woke up at 830 to tell my child that she was past time to go to bed.  My body was simply unwilling to allow me to get up and prepare for the next day. So, I got the bright idea to stay in bed until well, today. By 930 or 10 pm, I was itching to get up and check my email and peruse the news and Bravo and read a book or do laundry. I am actually a nocturnal creature trapped in an opposite sleep world. I also do not enjoy sleep. I feel that if I am in bed too long that I am missing out on something. But I stayed there all night-it was overdue to be honest.

I wonder if things that I did in my teens and 20’s that were unscrupulous is what haunts me. Or, if it is the whole solving the world problems thing. Or, if it is the way that I yelled at my ex for the millionth time, or was more impatient that I should have been with my daughter over something trivial. In other words, perhaps I have a checkered past ;), or I am super worried over those things which I have no control over-which is a lot!

I wrote this long spiel on Facebook and a friend told me to read Matthew 24 and Genesis 6 and it was spot on. Scary, but spot on. I feel like I am one of those old southern people that is putting the fear of God in people or something. But I for the first time do wonder and worry a lot about when the world will end. Maybe if I had the clear conscience that others have I could sleep like a baby at  night. 🙂

My mom is one of the sweetest, kindest and most generous people I have ever met and she can take a nap at the drop of a hat. Maybe I should take a play out of her playbook and see what I can do in order to get in the bed at anytime and fall into a deep slumber. But maybe I am just one of those people that makes coffee nervous and am not destined to be a good sleeper.

Simply~

Dee