So, I knew my heart would be broken this year. I said to God on New Year’s Eve- please don’t break my heart about Oscie. But, it was Oscie’s time to cross that rainbow bridge to heaven.

My beautiful tuxedo cat, Oscar Jeremy Wilde de la Renta, was put to sleep at approximately 945 am. on January 16th. He was having problems breathing. For  nights prior, I stayed up as he was wheezing.

The week before, I spent 800 dollars on xrays and testing, and it seems in addition to kidney issues and IBD, his heart was collecting fluid around it – aka congestive heart failure. So, though we drained the fluid, and I spent another 200 on meds, which was delusional- I asked the vet for them. I was scraping by mentally to keep him alive.

So I guess this is an ode to Oscie:

My handsome boy who was always dressed for the occasion

Came into our lives after 4 years of no takers

He spent his formative years with no stability

We saw him upside down in his cage and we knew

12. 3 years we laughed and loved and comforted

He saved us, and I often thought

He watched our tears, our triumphs and was always a good boy

Never angered, always cautious, our baby

Too many songs about him to even write down

He put up with our nonsense, our nickname, our noise

He spent a lot of time doing his own thing but he was there

Our strong and chunky guy, our stalwart

From 19 lbs to 5 lbs, he fought til the end

Never mean, always grateful, forever loving.

Oscar was my baby, my pal, my best friend

Time went so fast, I was hoping it would never end

But what goes up must come down

Nothing ever stays the same

Cliches will never assuage us

The end of the bed by the wall will always be vacant

Forever a place for Oscie

In our hearts until infinity

He will forever be missed

~simply

Dee