So, yeah, pain and holding back emotions has kept me away…

So, as I have mentioned, the last year and a half have been so freaking hard for me. I have forever changed as a person as a result. Good and bad. I miss who I used to be in some ways, but feel stronger and more sure of myself and my life as a result of what has happened to me, and our country and world. So I have decided to start with Nov 2019 when things went awry and just let it all out. Bear with me, this journey is not positive or happy or uplifting, but it is real. I will be straight up, authentic and honest and may lose a few followers along the way, but I have to be me. I just cannot hide how I feel any longer. I have lost/let go of a lot of people on social media/acquaintances/real friends, on purpose. I have to pretend so much for my kid’s sake when dealing with people detrimental to her future, so I will not pretend here. And I fake my happiness so often because it bogs myself and others down so here, I will keep it all the way real. I just want to explain why I have been gone, why it has been hard to come back to writing and where I plan to go.

I hope in this process someone will be able to relate or identify with my frustrations and trials, and 1 person who reads this will be able to start their healing journey with me. I am still my kind and loving and sweet self, but there is just an anger and sadness I have not been able to let go of. Let’s let go together!

Thanks for reading , being patient, and for following along. Would love your feedback/questions/comments as well.

I appreciate you guys!



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I have tons of education and don't use it! I am non-traditional and traditional rolled into one person. I am a Christian, but need work! I am conservative fiscally, but I could care less who someone marries. My favorite things to do are: hang out with my kid, watch movies, read, write, sing, dance, love, live life to the fullest! I love: my kid, my cat, my best guy D, God, rain, chocolate, Christmas, friends, cats, animals in general, honesty, avocados, love, Hallmark channel, iced coffee, Harry Potter, NYC, England, Italy, D.C., Paris and autumn.

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