I am so glad that they had a great day! I really am. They stayed out for 9 hours. He bought her shoes and took her to the movie and out to eat and to another event. I had a peace when he left that I normally do not have because I kept literally saying: “Jesus Take The Wheel”. It may sound super cheesy and I know that Carrie Underwood sang it, but that is the only thing I could think to say. Towards the end of the night when she came home an hour late, I started panicking thinking that he had her around his dysfunctional girlfriend.
I mean I did have fun. I watched non-kid-friendly movies like Wolf on Wall Street and Bridesmaids with a neighbor. I went for a walk and then walked and bought some food. I also got an hour and a half of work done for my office manager job I do virtually. I did all of this without guilt. When she came home, I was super glad to see her and actually really happy when she mouthed to me that he didn’t try the girlfriend introduction thing.
I have just really worked so hard to raise my daughter in church, and with morals, and I don’t expose her to drama and adult situations. I don’t want all of these years of love and effort to be messed up in an afternoon by exposing her to unhealthy situations or people. And honestly, her biggest issue is that she wants to have a relationship with him because he has never taken time in the past to spend with her. She wants the little time they have to be just the 2 of them, not his “woman’s” 4 children and 2 grandchildren and all of the baggage that goes along with it.
There is no jealousy from me. It is not like I am sad that he is with her. I have been away from him for 6 years. But she has texted me and harassed me and then called me and asked if he was cheating. Then 2 weeks later has asked if she can meet my child and have her spend the night. She is unbalanced. She has also blasted him on Facebook and cussed him out and completely been classless. So, there are real reasons for this fear and trepidation I have towards her. It is definitely not unfounded.
So, I made it through the independent film. I had faith in God today that my kid would be spared from her dad’s drama. And it all worked out! Now, if I can only get the other part-time job from home that I applied for Friday. If that job happens then all will be right in my world. And it could be considered a triple crown weekend! At least for now.:)
God is good!